Monday, April 20, 2009

i have never been.
so heartbroken.
in all of my life.

as i am at this moment.

i was incredibly foolish to be happy for the end, so stupid stupid stupid for waking up today with a smile on my face.

i broke down and started hysterically sobbing in the waiting room, everyone either staring at me or pretending not to notice, begging the doctor, "please, PLEASE give me chemo this week, it's my last, pleeeaseeee."

no such luck.


Brooke said...

I'm so sorry Kaylin. I know you were looking forward to it being done and over with :(

elaine said...

oh, kaylin. this is fucking heart breaking. please hang on.

Anonymous said...

This breaks my heart! I am so sorry! I am guessing your counts were too low? I'm sorry! Just remember that the end of this is near! You can do this, I know you can. I love you!!!!


olivia said...

Kaylin, you've come so far, you've fought so long, the end of all this hell is near. Hang in there dear. I know you can. You are one of the strongest and most beautiful persons I know.
I love you so much and will send you all my good vibes and thoughts through the air.
kisses & hugs.

SweetAnnee said...

Oh honey..I know how you feel.. at the end all you want to do is finish your treatments.

I'll be praying..and cancer CAN BE hilarious..
I have so many funny stories already..
Hugs my dear, Deena