Thursday, January 31, 2013

It's like looking in a mirror...

If you're curious to know what I look like right now in ICU after Friday's surgery, this Iranian space monkey depicts me perfectly, from the velcroed-in leg restraints and little socks, to the bald head and sad face of pain and pure terror of his fate in life. Thank you space monkey, for making my life a little easier. Now I don't even have to take a picture.

Saddest picture ever.

Monkey business aside (yah I went there), surgery went fantastically well and I am slowly healing. They took out what was left of my tumor, the lower right lobe of my lung, part of my diaphragm muscle, and scraped some cancer from the vena cava that leads to my heart. I've had an epidural & two chest tubes put in, and I'm of the opinion that three is enough for one lifetime. That shit HURTS.

It is very hard to walk due to weakness and shortness of breath, but I'm working with a physical therapist every day to strengthen my stamina. I'll be inpatient at SK for the next week.

I hope your fate is as good as mine, space monkey.

13 comments:

Caroline said...

I really feel bad for the monkey.

But I hope you are doing better. Cancer effing sucks.

Joni said...

Hang in there; you're the toughest monkey I know.

Brad said...

Heal well. As for the monkey, wtf?

Christina said...

I can't tell you enough how thankful I am you shared you're story on mtv!! Your blog has already helped me find a few support sites for people our age instead of the old people ones my family had to offer.. Also, if it makes you feel any better, on february 3rd I looked like "the bride of Frankenstein" acording to my mom since I'd just had my thyroid & neck dissection.. I was stiff necked, wouldn't move my sholder for fear of the pain, & my foot somehow got hurt & lost all feeling for two weeks in surgery so I couldn't put much weight on it.. still not sure how that happened & nor is my surgeon.. but I'm just awesome like that.. =D

Erica Erickson said...

You are so inspiring. I am 25, and was just diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I find it to be pretty miraculous that I accidentally stumbled across you... because you are what I feel like I want to be inside.

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Anonymous said...

It sucks that you're sick again but if it ever happens to me I'll try to be as cool as you about it. Hang in there.

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Jennifer Dittbenner said...

hey hun...u got this shit. embarresed of ur story or nor on MTV i think u got ur point across..... (my exact same point i couldnt manifest vocabulary.) its hard to watch....but i bet u wish the worst part of the week was "watching" a young beautiful fight this...this "rare" cancer. ( i hate the word rare :/ I think its to make the "diagnosers" feel better that they wont get the "rare" cancer cause its "rare" ) Is sombering n makes things a little comforting to know... it still sucks being sick on most days but seeing ur strength helps me on those "good days" keep on doin u babe.... Im a young mom who is sick therefore i cant express as freely as you do but i sured do think n feel the same
Jennifer D

Cheryl Foreman said...

RU still in NY or are you back in Cali?

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